Last night, I felt it happening and this morning - it has become a challenge to speak. I sound like I'm 80 years old, possibly a woman, holding back a cry.
I fear this mentality does the inverse of what we would hope. It creates a sense of patience with our immediate routines while creating an inevitable frustration and impatience with our long term vision. When realistically it should be the opposite.
Perhaps this feeling is not trying to pull you back to your past, but pull you into a future you internally want to see manifest. Something you may not have had the courage to do in the past but something you are ready to embody or 'be' now.
As human beings, we have a deep rooted desire to be right. To have the answer. And not only have the answer, have the answer quickly. While there is some utility in being efficient, I feel we often times misappropriate too much value and correlation between speed and effectiveness.
It matters not when you began but if you finished on time. And as soon as you understand this principle, you begin to work backwards.